Looking back at it. Over the years I’ve become more and more anti social. I don’t feel comfortable around people anymore. I was never the type to talk about my feelings with people because I knew that it would be for the better. I guess I was right because day after day, I’m losing touch with the people I care about the most. Like with Ada, Wei hao, Carolyn and I guess Mei. I use to talk to them everyday constantly like it would drag on for hours until we fall asleep. I miss them a lot to be honest. Especially Ada. She was like my go to homie for whenever I needed help. Always had the best advice, always worried about me. She was like a REAL sister. (unlike my real sisters that don’t give 2 shits about me) She had my back and I had hers, through thick and thin. She was my anchor. Wei hao was always the realest guy in the old crew. Like he was always up front and kept it real with you. I miss playing basketball, ping pong and shit with him. He was always a depressed guy, just like I am but he always knew how to lighten up the mood. He understood how I felt with a lot of things and I don’t know. It’s just easy to tell him things. Carolyn was that nigga that you constantly argue with over the stupidest things ever. But when things were forreal she always had your back. We use to spend like countless hours ranting and shipping bitches for no reason. She was always making me rate girls and guys which I actually didn’t mind lol it was fun I guess. But now I lost all of that. It’s my fault too. I just shut myself out of their lives and the world without noticing. Idk. I just miss talking and being with them. So I guess I’ll try to be more open.